temporarily temporary

sad. i wish for a moment, while observing other happy people together..and living their lives in a shared space, that i could do that with ted..simple and loving. i want to be about to do that. its a desire that couldn't be fufilled presently for a lot of reasons. am i ready for something like that? can i learn to have patience. can i let silly things slide? how can we carry out our nomadic dreams and yet still stay simple, stable, loving, together, genuine..and able to to spend enough time together in a healthy place in order to grow together? i know we'll need this temporarily seperation..yet we don't really know how long it will be..and yet i also yearn for that simple love..that booky romance..having our own place and space..a glee fills my heart that is suddenly empty again because i don't have this..i can't have anything even like this right now..